How Much of God Do You Really Want?

“You shall seek Me and find Me, when you shall search for Me with all your heart” (Jer. 29:13).

“I would like to buy three dollars worth of God, please. Not enough to explode my soul or disturb my sleep, but just enough to equal a cup of warm milk, or a snooze in the sunshine. … I want ecstasy, not transformation. I want the warmth of the womb, not a new birth. I want a pound of the eternal in a paper sack. I would like to buy three pounds of God, please” (Wilbur Reese).

Recently, I shared with our congregation that one of the most difficult challenges associated with pastoring is not sermon preparation or taxing counseling appointments, but witnessing the tragic results of spiritual dehydration—dying spiritually with living water just a step away.

Sadly, we become so busy, so self-absorbed to drink of the living water that Christ often spoke of. The excuses are broad, the solution is narrow: “But whoever drinks of the water that I shall give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water that I shall give him will become in him a well of water springing up into eternal life” (John 4:14).

Very few are truly hungry and thirsty for God. Although most of us quote, “Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness for they shall be filled,” many have never truly experienced it. Paul said that He wants to know Christ in the power of His resurrection and in the fellowship of His suffering (Phil. 3:10). King David cried out, “One thing I have asked from the Lord, that will I seek after—for me to dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to see the beauty of the Lord, and to inquire in His temple” (Ps. 27:4).

Hungering and thirsting for God is an all-consuming passion that drives every aspect of life. One summer, I took a bike ride out into the desert with little water. As I turned around and headed back to my truck, I realized that I was out of water. Each mile brought a new level of thirst and desperation. My thoughts were consumed with water; nothing else mattered. The scenery and quiet that I enjoyed minutes earlier had lost its attraction.

Hope surged when I spotted my truck in the near distance. Within minutes, I dropped my bike, sprung the truck door open, and devoured the remaining water. Dehydration and exhaustion quickly gave way to a refreshing sense of satisfaction. The extreme thirst that I was feeling was now satisfied.

This reminded me of the thirst that God often describes in His Word—those who truly thirst (seek) Him with all of their heart will be satisfied. This is not partial obedience; it’s full surrender. It’s not trying to squeeze God in; it’s about allowing Him to fully saturate every aspect of our lives.

Ironically, we can have the letter of the law, but not the heart of Christ. We can break down the Bible, but hearts remains as hard as stone. We rule our homes with a rod of iron, but know nothing about compassion, gentleness and humility. We often come to church to judge others rather than to truly seek God.

There are also those who have replaced conviction with compromise. As stated last week, if you find yourself saying, “I’m just not convicted,” it may be time for self-evaluation. If one is offended by a call to holiness, it may be a good indication that repentance needs to be sought.

Holiness is a mark of conviction and a surrendered life. Holiness is not an option like a choice in a buffet line. Holiness is the mark of someone who is genuinely filled with the Spirit of God. Without holiness no one will see the Lord (Heb. 12:14).

The lukewarm church disdains the heat of conviction; thus it remains lukewarm. Lukewarm knows nothing of holiness, surrender and the Spirit-filled life. It may have a form of godliness, but it denies God by its lifestyle (see 2 Tim. 3:5). Charles Spurgeon rightly noted, “There will be three effects of nearness to Jesus—humility, happiness and holiness.”

Why don’t many truly seek God? First, it may be that one is not genuinely saved. They may have “religion” but not a true “relationship” with the living God.

Second, many do not want to seek Him. The excuse is often: “I just don’t feel like seeking Him.” But we must first discipline ourselves before desire comes. We must first empty ourselves in order to be filled. We must first obey before receiving the blessing. We must first break before there is restoration. We must first pray before there is transformation. We must praise Him before there is peace. And we must first seek Him if we are to truly find Him.

The fire of God, the manifest presence of God, does not fall on an empty altar: “I urge you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, that you present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy, and acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service of worship” (Rom. 12:1). Genuine faith is reflected in sincere humility, selfless love, true repentance and a surrendered life. Does your life reflect these characteristics? Are you truly seeking God? Its not too late.

Shane Idleman is the founder and lead pastor of Westside Christian Fellowship in Lancaster, California, just North of Los Angeles. He recently released his seventh book, Desperate for More of God at shaneidleman.com. Shane’s sermons, articles, books, and radio program can all be found at wcfav.org. Follow him on Facebook at: facebook.com/confusedchurch.